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Argh!! I'm so pissed off. This girl I'm supposed to be living with who is one of my only friends in Irvine is totally bailing on me! Again! Last year we were supposed to live in this one apartment together but she gave up her lease because she thought she could transfer to UCLA and then she couldn't so she had to find somewhere else. And then for next year we were looking into apartments together, and we have been looking for months, and just today she tells me that a lot of things are going on in her life right now and she doesn't want to sign anything with the Irvine Apartment Communities right now. Sometimes she's really obsessive and makes stupid decisions. Seriously, she won't want to sign anything until like September, but I can't come down here easily to sign papers. She's already screwing us over by wanting a late July lease.

Not to mention there's this third roommate who we don't know at all. I don't know what to tell this girl! I might have to tell Jenn that I can't live with her and find an alternate situation, or at the very last resort, move in with Mark. But if that happens and we all have to split up then Jenn is telling the third roommate considering it is her fault.

I don't want to make any stupid, irrational decisions too fast, but it just isn't fair to me that she tells me this two weeks before I leave for summer. We lined up this apartment at this really nice apartment community that Mark lives in so it is totally convenient for me: it's close to the bus stop / bike trail (I don't have a car) and I'm close to my boyfriend (which is also nice because I don't have a car to get to his apartment). But now she's telling me that she doesn't want this place and wants to look at alternative places. NO! I don't have a car to get anywhere, and it is just awful for me. Bullshit you're keeping me and the other girl's interests in mind. If you want to, you can take this third roommate and do what you want, but if your daddy is going to baby you so much and find an apartment for you then why doesn't he just get you a single. I don't even want to live with her anymore at this point. She's being really disrespectful to me by telling me this two weeks before I leave. I really don't want it to come down to it, but I might have to move in with Mark.

I was wondering why she was being so cheap these last couple of days. She was arguing with me over these two apartment communities which have a $67 dollar difference. It's fucking $67!!!! And then today she tells me that her scholarship ran out so her parents are *gasp* actually going to have to pay for the UC, and that she's going to go Greek next year so that costs money too. OK. If you're going to be totally selfish and make me have a worse living situation when you were so happy with it before, then I don't want to live with you. Next thing I know, you're not going to want to get cable because it's too expensive.

Lately she has become someone that I just really don't get along with. I've always known that she's a chameleon. She will become whoever she is talking to and agree with them on everything and then she'll be nice to the very people she was talking shit about. She is not a real person with a real personality. And now she wants to go Greek... Not all Greeks are bad, but trust me... at UCI they're all fake-ass bitches with no personal feelings / beliefs that they will ever express (welcome to L.A.).

goodbye walnut creek and all of your baggage. i won't miss it.


i wish i could forget it all.

Maybe there's a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew ya
It's not a cry that you hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah